Looking through some of my old writings this week, I came across this little article from July 2007 that made me smile. Even being twelve and a half years later, the words below still have truth and relevance for my life today. Growing up and finding purpose as a young adult can be difficult. I remember opening up my heart to God in a season of waiting and just wondering how He was going to direct my life. Regardless of age, when we are inward focused on ourselves, it’s easy to play the comparison game with other people and be discontent. But when we choose to surrender our thoughts, attitudes, and desires to God, our perspective shifts heavenward and we can find contentment.
In the nighttime stillness, a sliver of moon shines dimly outside, as everyone but me lies in deep sleep.
Enveloped in a foggy mist of dreamland, I think, “If only…”
If only I were a bit older, my life would seem more stable and put together.
If only I could create my own life plan to follow, I would feel more confident.
If only there were more hours in a day, I could be more productive.
If only I were engaged or married, I would be happy.
If only I were taller, thinner, prettier, etc… my life would be so much better.
If only I didn’t have to wait for the really good things in life, I would be more satisfied.
Exhausted by my inward thoughts, my world is quieted by the Spirit’s restful peace. The approach of daybreak shines out hope to my, “If only’s”.
If only I would enjoy my age, I could find stability in the Lord’s strength.
If only I would leave the planning to the Father, my confidence would be grounded in true hope.
If only I would give my time to God and allow him to choose my activities, I wouldn’t worry so much.
If only I would embrace my single years as a healthy adventure, I would understand this opportunity for growth.
If only I would look at myself from the inside out, I would see a heart of depth instead of critiquing my appearance to man made ideals.
If only I would move into the plush, comfy chair of patience instead of the hard, rigid stool of anxiety, I would see God’s hand at work.
Another day ends, as night falls again.
I realise that my life is just as it should be right now.
Tonight it’s a full moon and my challenges of yesterday are fading.
Peace is here as I trust in my Maker.
The stars are shining brightly again.
Faith and hope are restored.
Thank you for your steadfast love that is constant in an ever-changing world. Help us to daily place our trust in you, knowing that you are faithfully doing things in our lives and steering us on your path of righteousness. May we lift our eyes and hearts to you alone, and as we seek you, may peace and contentment overflow into us. Thank you for the many blessings we have and even through difficult moments, we thank you for where we are right now in our lives. You are with us and we can rest in your presence through Jesus.
“You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.” Isaiah 26:3